probably its due to the over lying in bed ytd,
allowing my memories to play across vividly.
happy and not so happy memories came back..
its been months..
but it seemed like only yesterday..
the step i took into the river was unexpected.
but i'm still swimming as the current pulls me.
I'm leaving the banks of the shore
where footprints are being washed off.
but i can't stop throwing backward glances.
The current is warm as it hugs me close..
but it doesn't go one way to the other side..
wind blows and it changes direction
yielding me to be strong enuf to swim across.
Am i too stubborn?
why can't i go along with the current?
sometimes i try giving up..
and the dark waters swirl around me..
but the current pushes me to the surface each time.
perhaps one day,
i'll be able to flow with the current,
be part of the river in it..
or perhaps,
the current would still
and i either continue my swim to the other side
or i jux close my eyes and let the water encase me as a whole.
for i know then,
i'm by myself
