who am i?

maybe someone should come out with a new guidebook'. i never really noticed wad i did wrong till now cos i thought it was right to want to spend any free time with you.. didn't want to let you feel alone or neglected...so never expected it to slap me back in the face. serve me right i guess but one's supposed to have their own personal space. i dun even know how the hell i ended up in this mess. sometimes i feel i just fall into this shit voluntarily cos every step i take i try not to go back with the same mistake. and i dunno why after i heard that sentence, that feeling of insecurity has come back.

i'm trying to find back the girl i set out to be 5 months ago. was half way to accomplishment wen i stopped. at times i also dunno who i really am. but wen i do find her back, i dunno what will be left of the real me cos as days pass by, its proven the made-out me seems better. at least i won't have sleepless nights and depleting tissue paper like its free.

what to do?

Exams and projects really drained me to the max.. lost my voice for a week and only fully recovered aft 2 weeks =.=. at least one paper down and a few assignments presented.. still have more to come.. urhg!! gonna try enjoy my cny thought =)

Feeling tired today!

Godma was hospitalized.. feelin so guilty for not having visited her in the months dat bestie wasn't in singapore.. so many things have happened.. seeing her lie there i really felt like crying. Its my first time seeing her so weak so scared. I can no longer see the brave strong her who taught me to reach for what i want wen i first knew her at 16. She felt she was a burden and her biggest worry is her family. It really made me think twice and appreciate my love ones wen dey are still around me. Inside me, i really wish she can recover but according to the doctors...... its bleak =(

Just wanted to pput all this unhappiness behind me so went for waacking. body and soul wasn't at its optimum. freestyle went really bad for me.. but i did feel better! dance can work wonders.. den went to celebrate weiling birthday!

She got a big shock seeing like one whole stretch of table there with all her close frenss.. lol.. food was the best and wen i thought everything cld be alright again, there came all this misunderstanding.. just because of a careless decision of not taking care of my own belongings.... realli tired.. and i can't sleep knowing you're unhappy.. really dunno wad to do now.. FML.

mixed

well

you are a like a special gift sent to me

without the instruction manual..

so afraid that one wrong twist and it'll break

so now, all i'm gonna do is to watch and

see how you operate so we can all adapt

and be as one.