qaiser's bdae

well well.. stayed home and did the usual hsework and prac guitar for 2+ hrs.. I finally can make out a little tune wen singing and playin at the same time for Teardrops On My Guitar =) my fingers are like red and hurting now do.. and i peeled of the skin =( ..but its hows i've been hardworking.. hahah!!

Bout 6pm, went to heerens fish and co to meet up with ZX, JC, Bram, MarcNg, Bruno and bdae boy Qaizer =) been long since i laughed like an idiot.. me and Zx were like practically swallowing air cos the guys were makin all sorts of jokes.. still suffereing frm post-camp fever.. haha!! Surprised qaizer by getting the crew to help celebrate. dey made him stand on the chair and got the rest of the ppl to sing happy bdae song for him.. guess qai was lucky dat it was a mon and they were like very few ppl.. LOL.. den ate the very nice cake.. got a video with qai pullin out candles with his mouth only.. but sadly we were all to nice give him a cake bash! x) gonna get the rest of the grp pics frm zx soon.. haha!!

We continued by sitting outside taka and played Truth or Dare. Qns were freakin funny.. we played like non-stop till 10.30 before all of us seperated our ways.. Me and JC took the train but opposite directions.. so took my solo trip home.. =) 

can't wait for sch to start and meet up with the Usualz again =)

V!

well its like late.. i'm just back frm my walk under the starry starry night skies.. been so long since i've seen so many stars =)

well.. went for chen's wedding today morning.. met jovan and took bus 7 dere.. we were like the earliest of our cls.. 4L was dere also and finally met hwee li, leonard, yap, etccccc.. the wedding was very humourous.. best thing quoted frm the rev:

Bride-- men will always remain as boys. and boys always need their toys as long its legitimate.

Groom-- Fear GOD + Fear wife = long life!! x)

but seriously, i like totally can't clique with the rest la.. so ended up me and jovan didn't even eat lunch and we took the train home.. haha.. den cleared mama's rm.. it was so dirty.. the maid like totally nv mop floor wan la.. even kor kor mop the rooms cleaner den her.. halfway, Ally escaped.. was like frantically running up and down calling for her.. den lucky mummy found her on the like 2 nd storey??? we were supposedly on the 9th floor?? whew.. give me heart attack...

aft clearing everything, den came home and slacked.. was waiting to see anybody accompany me to marina bay.. end up someone made me waited 2 hours.. haha!! but its ok!! thx v for walking with me, letting me enjoy the stars, the water, attracting mosquitoes away frm me, sending me back home.. =) so much misunderstanding has wasted our time.. glad all has been cleared up =) its been long... n i promise i'll be thinking thrice bout we said tonight! 

dark circles

I really wonder wad blogs are for?? For u to vent down your frustrations? to be heard? to be the communication tool & let your feeling known for "your one n only" ? or issit simply jux for u to record down your memories and let u smile wen look back at them..? someone.. enlighten me please...

Sry cy, didn't go down for prawn noodle cos woke up late and needed to do hsework =( den taught piano, b4 heading for ballet. my gosh.. my dark circles are gonna kill my image.. first thing Qi said to me was:" wad happen to your eyes!!" argh!!! i'm not gonna go out of the hse without my concealer anymore.. =X.. alot of the rest also commented i grew slimmer.. heh heh.. who knew.. eat only wen hungry was the correct plan x) ok la.. jux kiddin ppl.. i'm not anorexic.. its due to the fever, cough and flu last week dat i lost weight.. puh lease... do i ever turn down food?? other than chicken dat is.. haha =) But its a good thing i guess.. haha.. but i seriously wanna go gym and swimming..

bestie!!! hurry come back frm camp.. missin yr company for the past few days already.. =(

mall cops

well well... have been doin nthg much these few days... went and collected back my guitar on tues.. den visited Derek with parents at night due to car accident while he was on his way to our hse to give us things he brought back frm japan.. lucky no fractures.. thank the lord! =)  stayed at home the whole day on wed..

den today went out watch mall cops at cine.. lame show.. not much laughter.. but while waiting for the rest, we went to gloria jeans to try the 3bucks promo.. ended up ly's oreao mocha tasted like crap so he asked for a change.. den cy's mint was also equally eurgh!! heng heng didn't noe and bought the same one =.=.. lucky my choco was okok only.... ate tepanyaki for dinner.. me and ly shared the one4one set and didn't order drinks cos we were the pair under budget.. hahah! but it was a great deal, got sashimi, sushi, fish, chicken, vege, prawn, chawamushi, sherbet!! yumyum!=) supper was at 85.. so long nv go liao.. stingray was good but the oyster was like flour.. =(

well tmr is ahs founder's day.. dunno whether i'm gg not!! hahah!!

personality quiz

Jux did a little personality test and here are the results... go try it out:

http//www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx!!

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

suntan

Time passed very quickly today!! woke up bout 12 since no one at home.. was damn idle.. wanted to go out but can't since i promised mummy i'll be home incase she cldn't be back in time.. ended up, at 2.30 kai said he go suntan since the stupid weather forecast was wrong and today happened to be SUNNY! so resorted to reading book.. but somehow, mum came back early enuf at bout 3.30.. and kai happened to be watchin bball match at sbc.. so i cabbed down.. and can u believe it?? the sun disappeared ;(.. but it came back soon aft at it was perfect! i turned a little more tan and my face no longer so pale...

on the way out, saw julian and huiwen since they jux played finish their match before takin bus back.. didn't go watch movie.. relaxed and prac guitar.. was supposed to take the guitar back but left it there b4 someone disappear for 5 days bcos of camp.. and due to the fact it made me laugh hearing kai compose his own song.. haha!! hilarious! :)

drank smthg new today.. similar to jackdaniels with coke.. but much nicer cos it was sweeter to the taste..=) hmm.. is dis gonna be a habit?? hahahah!!!

DRAMAs!!!! my late night entertainment.... hope can finish xun qing ji by tonight! =)

cuthair

Attended service!! and i thought it was lottery day! daddy jux handed 5 bucks to me.. mummy gave me 20.. =)) i jux said thx and took it.. who turns down money.. hee hee =)

went to find kai but ended up fallin asleep.. mux be the flu medication.. +.+!! den went down to hougang to cut our hair.. den my mood changed so fast i cldn't cope it myself..it was supposed to be a happy day =( ended up, daddy called and want me back by 6 pm to eat pizza.. i should be happy.. but i dunno y i ended up so angry and all my frustration seemed to reach the limit.. and i tried holding back.. but i cldn't.. thx kai for trying to lighten up the mood and sry cldn't go clarke quay to walk walk see see... 

ended up, eat finsh pizza, daddy jux dropped us back home at like 7pm and i was like.. =.=..... dazed arnd at home and watched ai, now also seeing xiao zhu dance! so cute! gonna continue with my book= Dance of the Gods! later!! 

rainbow

well... today.. woke up in the morn and taught piano.. and i was paid my fees =) so proud of myself that at least i have earned smthg during the holidays.. haha.. but i'm feeling a little sick.. croaking around.. but hve been a good gal :) helped mummy aft my lesson and taught the rest of the students math and eng.. did a little laundry den i went to find kai.. 

who knew.. it rained cats and dogs so ended up watchin him eat lunch den not to waste money, went his hse yet again.. played hotel california.. kai totally win me liao.. haix. den took a nap before waking up to someone calling me "stupid noob"

den while eating dinner, saw that the sky was like golden so went out to look.. end up seeing a rainbow =) den, went up to watch se diao ying xiong zhuan.. but was couging like shit so no mood..

went out and like finally drank the cider again!! totally whacky..=)) i'm getting hooked on it la. den took my ride home again.. these quiet trips made me think wad am i really doin.. issit really for me? issit worth all the effort?? laughter covers everything i wanna hide.. i noe u are making an effort.. i can say life was like the same as before.. but only your attention i'm no longer certain that it stays.. and that makes the difference of everything..

well, on a happier note!! thx uncle for the late bdae present =)) love it!!

french

Today was woken up at 6+ jux to help fill dog food =.= though i like only slept at 4+ cos watchin drama.. den tried gg back to slp.. but woke at 10.30 to help kai check his results.. congrats!! its not bad =) den did some laundry before hitchin a lift frm mummy to sch to pay my french fees like aft procrastinating so long >.<

had macs for lunch den tried gg back to slp but evrybody jux keeps disturbing me till reali can't den brought ally to groomer.. she came back all shaved.. hahaha!! my poor darling!~ den played around with my mac, gettin used to the commands.. before giving mumsy a short tutorial on how to use my t61 b4 i gave it to her..hhaha =)

and i'm so glad.. jux found out a few minutes ago that i passed my french..!! YAYYS! dis is the only thing that brightens my mood =)

gonna go back watchin tv..................

bbq

ytd supposed to go sch to pay french fees.. ended up.. mei saw me while driving pei to sch.. so they give me a lift to their hse x) den end up laze here laze there.. with the rain so heavy also, end up nv go sch.. sianx.. practiced guitar and took a nap b4 screams got me awoken.. den kai and me headed for the bball court.. supposedly say watch only but ended up playin.. haha.. den went got home suddenly noticed kai's watch missing so headed back.. though everybody was gone.. damn lucky the watch was still there.. whew..!! than bbq and ate curry.. mei had 2 dae cakes.. shand't elaborate why xcept that we ate the better one.. hahaha:)

for today, woke up at bout 10 plus den did somehouse work i neglected.. and i also baked a choco cake for lee yang.. den met kai at MC and tried to go gothic style.. xD.. before heading to meet the other at bugis.. ate fish n co.. everybody was trying to make ly the centre of attraction.. so kai and jovan started singing bdae song.. but most ended up like spoilt recorder:" Hap! Hap! Hap!" cos ly was staring daggers at them.. haha..

well.. gonna go watch tv.. ciao!

cheering Up

well.. i'm certainly feeling better now.. nomore makin my pillow drenched b4 i sleep.. aniwae, to cut the long story short,

FRIDAY

woken up at 8 in the morn. and was extremely grumpy due to ytd's mood.. haix.. but in the car mumy and i exchanged thoughts..thought thru a few things... den fetched kukong peter to do bawang kepiting (Crab Soup). its one fo the easier dishes but the best soup one can taste.. but somehow, kukong sensed that i was not as lively though i did try my best to act as if everything was normal.. .. felt too uptight so decided to find kai. he brought me to Sai BaBa there and i really felt calmness there.. than we walked aroung velocity which was really cool with the basketball court outside the mall x). aft that went to view his childhood pics.. sooo cutee. i cldn't recognise him :) den watched xun qing ji b4 heading to dreamland.

SATURDAY

I GOT MY MAC ALUM FINALLY!! THX DADY!

went to kai's hse early in the morning at 9am cos hafta wake him up to cut his hair.. ended up.. he too tired.. so bout 11am, he went back to slp till 1pm before we started playin the guitar.. hotel california is on the way.. and of cos watching xun qing ji again.. haha ;) went home bout 6, catched a little of ai, read a little.. den ZZZZzzzz

TODAY

had a good sleep finally..went for service.. felt the distance i have strayed away frm god. today's band "delusion" was good.. and it served a purpose for me to see the whole of max pavilion being packed fully. International delegats were there.. and pastor ceaser did a marvelous job with the sermon, guiding me back to where i wanted :) than headed to MS.. was earlier than kai.. haha.. over sleeper.. cld see it was real busy.. den finally ate a decent meal since the past 4 days. got my appetite back too;) caught ai sha with da zui ba at bugis.. was quite packed.. but went to view shirts instead.. haha..

went over for dinner.. and we started to play with eyeliners x) pei was pink and blue while kai was blue ....mine = matural.. haha>>

tmr's mei's bdae... fun fun!!! i tink i'm gonna go hve an early night =) no more being locked down.. faith restored.. for God's Blood Never Fails ;)

i was scared.. but i shld jux leave it as it is. why make myself unhappy.. gotto smile more.. cos i treaure uu..

LIAR

noe wad..

I hate LIARs..

in a real bad mood so nthg to say..

trying to smile

today went with yang yang and heng heng to sp for the enrollment thingy..ended up being like a mother... haha x) viewed the computers and compared it to np.. np much better.. den cabbed down to ly hse n met his huge dog which can play dead.. very cute.. den met up with cy, jovan and kc for dinner but first got my bagpack at bugis.. and ate at phin's steak for $25.. i'm gonna be so broke..>.<>

i'm tryin my hard to smile to laugh.. but its hard cos i feel u drifting further away frm me and it jux scares me that one day u'll be gone.. and i'm gonna be left alone again.. how many times have i told myself nv to be dependent on anyone cos it always ends up with the same result. i'm so stupid.

a step into the past utube

i finally got my well-deserved rest..... cos i just WOKE UP.. haha.. can't rmb the last time i woke up so late..hmmm... well i'm getting very restless at home.. i need find a job soon or i shld jux probably relax.. haha

didn't do much the other days.. on sat wen out with uncle david and kai.. my nose was a tap and my voice so sexual.. haha den sunday got pulled out of bed at 8am to go marketing and started cooking bua keluak till 3pm.. hand damn tired.. delieverd the food to kukong peter.. and he said it was good for a beginner.. though it lacked a little sugar and salt plus the meat was not evenly mixed.. hee hee.. dun wry, i'll improve >.<>

have been practicing on my guitar till it went out of tune but i didn't noe.. haha.. managed the plucking for the first 2 bars of hotel california!! i'm so smart x)

Have also been watching very good hong kong serial acted by louis khoo, xuan xuan and a s'porean actress.. go catch it on youtube -- Xun Qing Ji (A Step Into the Past)....

so i tink dats all.. gotto go watch my dramamamamass...
other than the fact i'm trying to be happy.

teardrops on my guitar

my exact feelings....

Teardrops On My Guitar_ Taylor Swift

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll be she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough for me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

chalet guitar

whee.. chalet is over.. the past 3 days have been a blast and full of fun..

02/3/09
went out with shiling at 11am.. went to vivo and bought my beret frm f21 finally.. den went to daiso and ya kun kaya toast to eat.. gal talked and catched up alot.. i feel i really neglected my frens frm back in ahs.. i haven't seen them like in ages.. thx ling for accompanying me shopping and hearing me talk non stop.. haha.. den slacked at the chalet.. we seriously went to early.. so go IMM walk.. eat mos and buy discs.. den went back chalet since the guys saud they were arriving..

den i got my surprise.. a guitar case filled with kinder surprise chocolate.. of cos they were jux playin.. jovan was holding my new guitar behind.. i was damn touched... it is the best surprise that i ever had.. and the best present i cld get on my 18th belated bdae. thx to you all mann.. which is kc, ben, yi heng, chunyong, jovan, andy, gabriel, lee yang, wee hoe, melissa, shiling. reli thx alot.. x) den played bball and ate at HANs for dinner..

03/03/09
actually woke up bout 10am.. but was super freezing.. so jux lie down there though the ppl sleepin upstairs was gg crazy with their slangs.. they left us with one hr of quiet cos go eat breakfats den they were back.. by than was already 3pm.. den the guys go play bball again plus swimming.. the gals went IMM to buy us macs.. rest was also doing their own things.. so i ended up gg to bed.. jux felt i needed a quiet time.. buddy somehow called by telepathy again.. thx for hearing me whine again.. den kai came up to find me.. i didn't noe wad came over me at that time. i jux felt so alone and confused.. i'm sry for dampening the mood.. i didn't wanna say anything cos its best to jux forget bout everything.. i noe i'm in no position to ask so much.. but u've got my wrd that i'll stop.. i treasure this friendship as much as u do and i dun want to see it slowly deteriorating..

watch step up 2 and drank.. den decided to slp cos like know tmr hafta wake up early to check out.. so went up to slp on the bed.. so comfy.. but dis time no blanket.. fishmonger jovan took it all for himself on the sofa.. haha.. its ok jojo.. ytd night u freezed so tonight your turn to be warm..

04/03/09
checked out exactly 12 aft hunting for towels x).. though was delayed cos of some admin problem, went to simpang to eat prawn noodle.. den took taxi home. bathed and slept.

05/03/09
so today...aft more than 12 hours of slp.. later gg watch bball match finals back at ahs.. miss my sec sch mann.. and my holiday aim.. to learn the guitar and get my driving license.. :)