sometimes love ain't just enough

sometimes i really wonder why... i'm confused and i'm trying really hard but maybe.. i dunno. I'm just filling my week with things to keep myself occupied. but this only reminds me of a life that i had somehow grown accustomed to in the not so far past.. in any case, have been doing alot of random stuff, surfing web, finding songs, tweeting.. lol.. still wanna say, thank you for frens.

anyway, here is a song a found:

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side. I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.
Oh, Oh, Oh, No

christmas 2010

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!

its currently 11.56pm.. 4 more min before this christmas ends.

the wonders of blogging after such a long period of time is that there is so much to say. lol. Well, its also sch hols now.. in another 2 months i'll be graduating from poly already. time really whizzes past so fast. School is as usual.. with assignments thrown to us like free.. event for gelare and some crap thing happened.. first time most ppl see me really pissed off.. oh wells, as usual it blew over in bout 1 hrand now, currently heading with xiu ying the BS open house event..

Went to FB production last week. Really awesome! Ks really outdid himself with his antics, diane and edi also did extremely well.. so other than the waacking class i have started already, i'm gonna sign up for HOUSE in jan with vee =) somehow, i don't know what my life would be without dance.

as for ♥ , we had our 1mth anniversary at marina barrage! my first time there, really sweet! sit there enjoy the wind and scenery with the sandwich ♥ made plus my potato salad..!! seeing a group trying to fly a sotong kite.. lol!! den we went to try out fish spa at marina square. it was really ticklish! me and ♥ cldn't stop laughing for the first 5 min.. and best.. we paid for 10min but the prsn forgot to call us and we ended up sitting there for nearly 30 min before we left only cos our movie was starting! hahahah!! so worth it right? x) Tron is a must watch show... seriously damn cool concept.! den we went to nyny and ♥ spammed the cotton candy! haha... it was a real good ending to such a sweet day! =) but ♥ is getting busy these few weeks, with danzation pracs, imp7ct training plus call back by army.. doubt i can see him these few days.. missin him!! =(

Christmas this year really happening!

had my first dinner with ballet babes.. changed venue from timbre to some italian restaurant than brewekz.. totally fun!! cam whore and jux chat! plus played MAFIA... and all so smart... solve so fast!! and all currently setting to meet up for lunch again.. can't wait x)

yesterday finally met up with the rest at julian's hse. after xmas countdown, gift exchange super funny.. "big boys use potty' was one of the present.. LOL.. i got an esprit towel plus a esprit perfume which was leeyang's but since he was a guy and plus i brought an extra gift for him to play the gift exchange.. he gave it to me.. hehehe!! but it was used to spray on everybody! poor andy whole body sprayed till he got intoxicated from the fumes and puked! he conked out immediately in jovan's car... hahah!!

and in the afternoon, bathed ally plus baked a cheesecake too.. diabetic friendly for grandma.. haha!! the texture was perfect, base was equally crisp and crumbly.. however, it was abit salty/sour because it was pure philadelphia cream cheese.. lol.. but today, everybody still ate a piece =) healthy dessert!! but the process to make was really funny!! the over spoilt so i short circuited the whole hse like 5 times.. and aylwin game got cut off like 5 times too.. hahah!! mummy thought it was a real joke x) thank goodness kayleng hse got oven.. Today at uncle dixon hse.. pot luck xmas.. ate good food which every family cooked! highlights were ESCARGOTS from france.. heeeee =) yummy!! and i found out drawing lots is getting to be a trend in choosing gifts!! drew out no 2 for aunty daphne's present and received chocolates =)

♥ is coming back from KL tmr.. hope he enjoyed and rested himself before getting back to his packed schedule this month... missing him..!

well.. my bed is calling!! NITEX!

short hair

Yes i know.. its been LLONGG like dunno how many freakin months.. oh well.. many things happened since i last changed this blog's layout.. hmm... think of switching again..hee x)

well.... i haave led my life well, going to school, catching up wwith frens, doing things i love and had no time to do in the past year.. simple things like going to a library to read a book. Gotto thank vee for it.. without her by myside, i think i'm still a fly with no head..

well.. heres to update.. aft 16 yearss... i finally got the courage... to...

CUT MY HAIR..!! yups.. its SHORT now...... =) and i'm loving every min of it..

i have been chionging nutcracker rehearsals for the past month and sure is damn glad its finally over.. the performance was fun and new frens were made. the costume was grand and the only thing that screwed up was the smoke machine.. lol

and have been gg to o sch for open classes.. needa buck up in my stagnant stage. i went to watch teenage-kpop dance battle.. was supposedly to go support edi and yiliang's crew. with vee who was to support her fren.. end up i really dunno how it all ended up.. but i got to know him and he became this special someone.! managed to meet his crew IMP7CT and yup.. they were the champions who won the competition =)) Went to celebrate alfred's birthday which i gotto say is damn freakin touching.. gary and jovelle seriously outdone themselves.. 20 min+ movie, the birthday surprise, a personalized scrapbook... i nearly cried even watching it =X.. it was meant to be a 3d2n chalet, but the 2nd night everybody had sch can't stay and somehow it became special to us...welll.. alot of ppl has been asking me about my relationship status.. i'm attached to this wonderful sweet boy ♥ !! but prefer this relationship to be low-profile cos we feel its a personal thing.. heh heh. so 171110 is our lucky day.. some may seem it fast.. but its been 2 weeks, and it feels like we've know each for so long... I'm feel i'm damn lucky cos without planning, we also a got to perform on the same production- The nutcracker.. so could see him nearly everyday due to rehearsals.. haha! aft performance, went for supper with my frens.. and they met dardar!! can say it went well... uuuberrrr hhappyyy =)

and other than the competition, went to watch osch recital which my dardar was performing.. first time see him dance in his element =) awesomee!! gonna try out nxt year and see how.. hee hee... and just not long, went uwb.. the 38 bucks paid was truely well spent.. so many great crew performed.. really gained alot of inspiration and make me reallly wanna train harder!!

and the last 24 hours, i really enjoyed myself..

i managed to spend time with dardar!! caught HP movie 7 part 1, and had his complete undivided attention... really wished this weekend didn't hafta end... inside me now, there is this warm feeling cos i can feel his care concern and love. huggs and kissed ♥!!

RMX shoe

Can't believe HTML codes are like so freaking irritating.

Well.. finally done with the new outlay and image..

Yawn!!

tired out like totally.. can't wait for a relaxing week=)

BUT i'm so proud i made a sale which add up to around SGD$ 3000

to this chineses lady today while at work. Seriously wished i was

that rich enuf to but such expensive skincare products..

ButWaitAMinute!!

i'll be too lazy to use it..

rather, i'll go buy that RMX shoe that i have totally set my eyes on.

hee hee!!!

OK.. gtg teach tmr!!

Nitex EARTH! :)

Bex Asia

Just came back frm bestie's home!

he flying off tmr to suzhou to study for 6 mths?? =((

just now aft dance, went out with ben and him to

queensway to buy shoes plus to OC for sticky sweets.

When got home for dinner, Aunty was so nice!!

she help us all shape our eyebrows =)

den helped with the packing of his luggage..

so cute la.. like brg his whole clothes collection. LOL.

was jokin if he forgot to brg anything,

i in oct go shanghai can bring for him.. hahha!!

thank goodness for the invention of skype

but still gonna miss him and his nonsense crap =)

hope he hve a safe flight tmr and may it be a fruitful trip! ~

as for the previous dayysss,,,

I started my official first day of school by working.. lol

have been very tired out with BEX Asia Conference!

It was held at marina bay sands expo..

Held frm 13-15, working hours 7.30am to 6pm

but gotto say i'm looking forward much to the pay =)

Really met lotsa engineers

from practically all over the world

and i'm certainly surprised even buildings

can be labelled as 'green'.

It has been fun with the whole group of temps..

we certainly knew how to come out with alot of crap.. haah!

and certainly thx to wenjian and his sis for

driving me there every morning and

letting me catch a few more mins of slp x)

Scannnig of passes, ushering etc.. were like the jobscope..

and in the midst, met up with those ppl who think dey

damn grand and freakin rude which i certainly won't

bother offering my assistance to.. and unexpectedly,

the CEOs, and directors were the most

polite and courteous to us!!

oh wells.. my leg is freaking hurting from those

idiotic spastic shoes..

like the whole big toe area can't even bend

hence cldn't even go for dance class =.=

please heal back asap.. or i'll really go nutssss!!!

>> Temps with Vincent our 'OIC'..

who treated us to mooncake aft it all ended~

>> The sweet Rachel who treated us damn delicious chicken bizcuitz =)

alrighty.... its time..

to go prepare what to teach for tmr's baby ballet class. x)

Moving on

Its been more than a year since i've last blogged on this page.

I had hoped never did i have to return here alone.

During the last year, we were sharing our words.

Though throughout it all,

it was only me blogging about the times we shared,

happy or sad, contented or angry, still.. it was ours.

But as the saying goes, nothing good ever lasts.

we had to go our separate roads,

without the usual sweet goodbye.

Your chapter opened some what smoothly with another..

while mine was left rocky,

with the edges still freshly scrapped.

I really wonder what happened to us.

our dreams, our plans tgt..

it evaporated within a split sec.

all out of pique, anger and stubbornness? i don't noe..

Nights which i could only cry,

turning and tossing around in bed,

hoping the next call or msg was from you.

But as said, the decision was final.

It was time for me to face the reality

i had so ironically looked up upon.

In the past weeks, i have slowly picked myself up.

Friends i have not talked in the past year,

touched me with their encouragement,

whether a sms, or a short call.. it helped..

People i had never really known stood by me silently,

I now understand the meaning of being in a

noisy crowded place, but yet feeling so alone

with the unexplainable deafening silence.

I had always hated this feeling but what else could i do?

Throwing myself back into dance,

was the best decision i guess...

Letting my passion take control of what was left inside me

gave me back myself, my goal in life.

You've been hurt and so have I.

But time will will heal all wounds.

I have never regretted my decision on 10.07.09

Memories will now only be left between us.

and i wish you all the best.

I can now only say, I will be strong

i'm moving on....