pangseh

I HATE EVERYTHING

I HATE MY LIFE

[[It doesn't pay to be nice

cos u'll jux get taken advantage of]]

clarke quay

Know i haven reali been updating these few days..

wasn't in the mood though i keep complaining of boredom. x)

well.. its been a week i enjoyed most since everything started.

Its e-learning week so hve been slackin at home..

But lets see wad else i have done.... hmmm..

WED - I've gotten my Blue and Brown coloured contacts, 

Kai got Blue and Purple cos brown outta stock.

aft waiting for him for bout 2hrs at tamp 1 =.=

not his fault though.. can understand projects are a headache.

and i managed to find the tank-tops i want while strolling arnd ^.^

Can't wait to be blue-eyed. Ha!

THURS - Finally finished my spanish IS lessons.. 

My Thurs wld be no sch now.. YAyy! =)

Rehearsal at SCGS was fast and cabbed home since it was late.. 

Adios my grp & Mr Antonio.. 

FRI - Baked english carrot cake at JY hse.. =)

Went to Clarke Quay to see the night scene.. 

and i loved the wind, the water, the lights.. thx  =)

My Lovely Carrot Cake!

Was seated here.. enjoyin the scenery. =)

TODAY - got awaken by someone i never expected.. 

and he even came over to bedok to meet me b4 gg to his hse..

yes.. it was dear bestiie Kai who wanted to go suntan. LOL?!!

and i was up within 15 min, packed and ready to go. haha

cept it rained on the way. like wth?? 

and i was SCAMMED by some idiot woman..

she say she emergency need $$ take cab to pick up her

2 children.. need go pasir ris. den i and kai also dunno wad to do.

she asked for $20 at least. we were like we also no $$ den she

tellin us dun wry she'll return the $$.. LIKE REAL!!

lucky i only lend her $10.. haix.. 

jux take it as give donation le lor..

[[ u can't blame me for having my doubts..]]

drink

Yesterday night,

was my first drinkin experience.. my limit sucks.. 

and i didn't noe y i cldn't stop it frm happening..

but in turn of events, it help numb all my feelins

wen someone finally replied aft 3 weeks and 6 days.. 

i shld be fine.. but y am i feelin so down,

left to dwell on all these crap while u walk away unscathed?

it probably was for the best like u said..

i cleaned the aircon, help buy groceries, 

played the guitar and piano..

went jogging despite my 4 freakin blisters

still,

my head hurts,

my legs hurts,

my insides are tearing me up.. =(

and in 2 month, i have dropped 6 kg frm all

the unwanted stress..

i want another drink.....

billy bombers

I can count 1,2,3 =))

Ok.. have been bored to the max the last few days..

Wed full day in sch till 8.30pm..

Thurs supposed to go out.. ended comin home to slp! lol!

Today evening supposed to go out with kai but he want to save $$

so ended up,  gg to PS with nic and frens 

and tried Billy Bombers for the first time. haha!

the food was ok but the drink was great! Baileys with Vanilla Ice-cream =)

and i finally met someone who i have been talkin to for a nearly a year :))

since nthg to do aft eatin.. headed back for ballet which ended at 11pm!

ok.. real tired now cos also swam 25 laps at the pool alone today aftnoon.. 

the sun was scorching!!! but managed to get the tan i want =)

Before i go.. share this vid with u guys!

Used to feel Love Story was quite an ok song only..

but this guy totally changed my perspective!

He arranged it for his 7 yr-old daughter.. so lucky!

Presenting LOVE STORY Meets VIVA LA VIDA!

NITEX EVERYONE! =)

raffles city

Today was normal..

Paid more attention to AAA lect..

FIT tut gettin more difficult to comprehend as each wk pass..

Bcomm briefed us on Phone Etiquette..

can go sign up be telemarketer le! x)

As for the phone call test nxt wk, hopin i'm not on the 9am slot

or she'll hear my damn sleepy voice and fail me.. -.-!

And i hafta start studyinn!! exams in 2 more weeks!!

den met kai, went to raffles city..

changed my faulty eye concealor at body shop.

explored chijmes too.. den headed to his hse.. =)

Been long since i had dinner there!

Missed the wide-range of home cook food=)

Though my mom cooks.. usually dun get to eat it..

cos return home late n bros eat everything up.. none left for me!

and wen i do.. she too busy, only one soup one dish..

but no complaints! at least she still squeeze in time to cook!!

and her soups are excellent!! Love it the most! x)

all in all.. home food always taste better den outside food! :)

Found out Mei and i bought the same design of sandals!!

Planning to shop more at Malaysia in June.. Hee Hee! =)

bused and Mrted home myself..

Gonna go to bed already.. its late.. tmr wld be a long day..

Swt Dreamx All! =)

bcomm dining

Bcomm at Alumni hse - Pines Cafe!

Dresing: smart casual

was supposed to be a 3 course meal.. 

for practical dining etiquette and Net working skills

but felt it was a little cartoon at the turn of events.. 

we set the cutlery on the table by oursleves instead of waiting??!!

ordered a thai styled milk tea 

cos the water dey gave us in plastic cups

had houseflies flyin over them.. Gross!! =(

and the soup tasted gd only aft adding loads of pepper.

Main course was OILED chicken chop..

we had to use all the napkins to soak up the drippin oil =x!

and Dessert was pudding.. the only good thing served!

was raining wen we wanted to leave.. lucky a nice tutor drove us

in her 7 seater car to canteen 1 where we tried playin L4D 

but the connection suck and i didn't brg my lappie =.=

FIT lecture was HILARIOUS! x)

Inside joke with the whole back row dere..

Topic: "KHAI KIT and .........!!"

and he got everybody's attention by trippin over the chairs

and lecturer asked if he needed help.. LOL!!

[[ KK!! All the best! u've gotten her fullest attention =) ]]

PIgged out at Nick's hse aft FIT lect ..

he had too many nice jap food and titbits!!^_^

shit!! i've ruined my effort in stayin off such sinful snacks! ARGH!

cabbed home.. blast the bill =.=

y mux he stay at YCK?? move to the east mann!!

Ok.. post more pics soon.. need get frm serene n kellyn =)

other than dat, enjoy these few snapshots!

Nitex everyone!

 Set the dessert spoon above your dining plate!

Oiled Chicken chop with Thai milk tea!

See the grease on the shining plate

Napkins which saved our arteries being clogged up with Fatty Oil!

Impromptu done namecards for networkin!

I'm ION Orchard Marketing & Public Affairs Exec. =)

Trying to enjoy the food.... 

Was bored and ended up @ Nick's 3rd floor toilet! HaHa! 

4 shots! kahlua n baileys!

Went for service today morning den to John Little
cos my platform sandals snapped wen i wore it outta the hse
for the freakin FIRST time ytd=.=

The lady say hafta give her a mth.. will send back to supplier to repair!
hopefully dey'll call me fast..
and i bought an eyeliner at the same time too!=)

aft dat went to meet kai at his shop.. alex was dere!!
and i found out Alex can be a real ass wen he wants to be.. haha!! =)
ended up helpin out with their project. LOL!
closed the shop n kai cancelled his idea of gg home to slp..

went shoppin for glow in the dark stars and ate
grilled sambal fish and chicken at food court.

went to Haji Lane nxt and got a very nice seat at this Bar,
the ambience was jux right and the table had a very nice vase of roses..
Kai picked martell and black label, I picked baileys and kahlua!
All 4 were on the rocks..
the 2 i chose was so my taste.. finally found smthg i like :)
we jux took our time tasting out the shots

it was a great feelin jux chilling at the place..
with good music..

and most imptly, with my best fren!
we mux do it once in a while yeah?? =)

went to a shophse with an interesting name: "shop not found"

and met a very friendly and lovely sales girl..
den i saw this lovely pair of Vans yellow platform sneakerss...!!
the only pair the shop imported frm japan and it fitted my size!!!

In short, my convo with kai was:
me: "shit!.. i can't buy it la.. $69.90 too exx!"
kai: "looks very nice. only pair leh! dun nd tink de.. can lend u $$ first."
me: "ok! i tink i shall get it.. can pay by nets rite?"
kai: " i think u're drunk!" ^.^

and seriously i tink i was outta my mind..
but kai gonna topped my bill..
he reserved a burberry shirt in which he'll pay nxt sunday cos
the salesgal will be back den.. haha!

oh!! and the shop had such a pretty gold bag too!! =)
shopped at cold storage den headed home..

will tink of my outstanding bills another time!! hee hee! x)

very sleepy.. but happy n contented!!
Swt dreams all!! =)

swim!! shop!!

ytd went well =))

sch ended at 1pm den we headed for alumni clubhse for lunch.. 

20% off due to 2 'deserving students' who were members x)

den went swimming.. didn't noe they had a bar n gym dere 

too.. haha!

swam 10 laps and decided to jux tan.. luckily the sun was good..

however.. mr BRAm came over and the sun left.. all his fault! 

but still i did turn a lttle browner ^.^

can't believe we 4 cld chat so much within the 3hours.. 

den totally shito!! 21 missed calls on my phone..

sch n parents all called.. all due to NOT handing in my genuine mc

and like my fault is someone ask me to dat de la.. and wen i hand in..

no one said anything also..and dey told my mom i missed mktg lesson. wts!

but nvm.. hopefully it'll blow over..

and daddy raisin my poket money by $50 =)

i'm reali lucky to have a dad who didn't want me to hve a hard life.

he told me he worked and studied b4 and it wasn't an experience

he wanted his children to try..

so dere goes my idea of workin and schling at the same time..

only can work during hols.. Lol.. 

had ballet n stretched like crazy. missed pointe work cos forgot to brg shoes..

but other den that.. it was fruitful in makin me more flexible!! haha =)

As for today, jux came back frm shoppin at PP!

collected my new passport and i look like crap in it =.=

But nvm.. i feel so happy now.. i completed my shoppin list..

and daddy was the one who paid x)

got my year supply of contact lens and solution..

(pity coloured contacts were like 3.5 times of it price. nvm. will buy with kai)

den finally got my concealor frm bodyshop.. 

daddy wanted renew mbership but need spend $50.. 

so ask me go pick out other stuff =)) bought 2 types of make-up remover..

so now.. i no need come out my own $$ to buy all the stuff le =)

eating my bulgian choco waffles now.. yumyum..

gonna go out and meet up with B now =)

fragile

I felt so alone in the past week..

But i'm glad i have Steph, KK, and Bra

to make me laugh this few days!! 

we even wore matchin clothing unknowingly ytd!

Tmr swimming =)

Tears flowed down my face unknowingly today

wen i heard that sentence..

tears that accumulated since last week..

it told me how fragile the mask was on my face.

i even hve a hard time trying to communicate

with someone that like doesn't exist in my life.

but i noe the rainbow wld come soon..

I Passed my FTT!! =))

I Passed my SPANISH! =))

i mux smile.

i mux grow strong.

i mux Stop depending on others

shit wednesdays

oopsy doopsy! i'm not supposed to be here.. but who cares!!

i'm currently at marketing lecture learning bout CB!

consumer behaviour la!! ^.^

Accounting quiz today was dumb.. i jux passed only =(

Tmr spanish and FTT.... Ragh!!

i'm freakin drained.. and

i hate wednesdays even more.. especially wenever i tink of last week..

i jux want to be freakin left alone.. cept i jux realised.. i'm alone?!

MON

went to the hospital for check-up.. 

had long queue for screening b4 can enter hospi.

was late for 20min for my 9.50am appt but 

guess everyone else was late also so didn't hafta wait long for my turn..

finally got a proper diagnosis..

but the bill amounted to $30+.. Wtf! if only i haven turn 18 den i can still

use the csc card so i have no medical bills.. shito! 

TUES

was home early bout 2pm cos graduation so sch early dismissal

had a freakin headache so slept frm 3-7.. woke up for dinner

and went back to slpin at 10++.. and now.. i'm still tired..wth..

end up i have fever.. shit! i'm not a prsn dat falls sick easily.. 

how come i'm plauged with all this crapo now??

Fuck! i jux feel freakin depressed now...

where the hell are u?? fine! jux disappear on me for one whole week..

does it even make a difference to you whether i'm dere or not?

Ppl jux disappear wenever they want to.. and it hurts

wen they are the closest to you.. 

it fuckin sucks like crap..

Was late for 9:50am appt ... but saw doc at 10:31am

Totally nthg to do during waiting time......

Gangster and miee! haha!

Happy belated Birthday/ Mother's Day

mother's day

Happy Mother's Day Mummy!!

Today hve been the best day of the week..=)

Woke up with a kiss frm mummy dear.. 

cos korkor gave her the $358 prezzie we were sharing already!

Worth all the $$ to see her happy!

Went for service with Ayl and mumy..=)

Had steak for lunch. yummy! i'm finally eating again..

Den had a little mother-daughter time doin mani and pedi!

I even got to try Waxing!! it hurts a little wen dey pull the strip..

But for once, i'm havin smooth legs in my 18 years of age. Hee Hee!

I've got prettaye nails with flowers now!! 

Total bill for me alone: $162!! OMG!! thx mummy for payin!! 

I guessed i needed a little pampering to cheer myself up after this not so happy wk.

Beginning to feel its like daughter's day instead and not mother's day!=)

Tonight i tink our whole family is gg out for dinner.. 

trying to get daddykins to sponsor.. hahaha!

As for ytd, 

had dance performance at 佛光山 for vesak day.

Finally understood wad is getai feelin! Lol! danced twice in total..

Once at the tentage area den cross road go the main temple courtyard.

Aft that, managed to take bus 27 & 168 with nicole, 

from sengkang to Uncle Dixon's hse for early MomDay celebration.

Ate a little of everything:

curry with bread, very delicious glutinous rice frm thailand, potato salad,

beehoon, coconut agar agar, bundung!

Chee Huat came to visit also.. He has finished 5 mth in NS already!!

He reali is different wen compared to my memories of him in pri sch! haha!

Dats all for now i guess.. 

To Be Unaccompanied...

My Melancholy Flowery Nails!

Random photo of my non-purposely torn tissue aft wiping my face! x)

exhausted

Exhausted!

had SOM tut for the first time and 

made frens with stephanie 

though i actually noe her frm LMS cls last term.. 

but first time talking to her face to face... 

gg crazy bout bangles. haha. 

And someone treated me to waffer!! thxthx =) 

for that, i'll help go photocopy all yr notes this whole term..

but u still hafta pay the paper money.. haha!

i tried to pay attention in SOM lect aft dat.. ended up falling asleep.. 

and Bram and Khai Kit was looking thru gals in facebook =.=! Lol!

aft sch, went to hve lunch with the rest 

but watched them eat cos wasn't hungry.. 

went library to read book b4 heading home to catch a nap b4 dance.. 

but still am very tired..

Suddenly realised i haven eat anything but that waffer the whole day.

so jux went to kitchen to dig smthg out and made a nice hot milo!

Ciao! Nitex everyone! tmr performace!

gettin thru

Hola! 

was so dead during spanish.. 

nearly cmi at makan place..

but thx N for being yr crazy self, playin rock songs. LOL! 

and B, thx for just being there..

I got thru today, i will go thru other days..

Went jogging aft so long.. missed the rush of wind.. 

Sprinting also helps me forget..

This is the biggest fall ever with the wound still aching.. 

but i'm gg to pick myself up.. like i always do.. 

Go listen to "When You Believe"

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see you way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near.

crossoad

Had sushi with kai today.. eat quite alot lar.. got exceed our $20 buffet money so nv waste. haha! den we went and walk walk see got wad nice clothes b4 heading back... chatted alot.. =)

if everything lasts forever, i wld want nthg more than that to happen to our friendship. =)

Wish i had shut up.. 

Wish we were as close as b4.. 

Wish my heart cld be directed by my mind.. 

Wish it doesn't hurt wen i already foreseen this outcome long ago.. 

Wish i can drop down everything off my back..

Wish i can have a good night's slp..

Wish i can stop thinking in these depressing thoughts..

Wish someone cld jux brg me away to a place where i can be alone..

Lord, i'm askin you to guide me in this.. i'm reali at a crossroad with everything.

frens? how?

Ytd, weiling told me i looked different frm usual, today, during lecture, ZX looked at me and told me i had to eat more cos she can see my jawline already.. and i finally realised i really lost quite abit of weight. but lookin in the mirror, i reali dun see any difference though.. lol.. been trying to change my look.. no more being a b0ring gal with shorts and shirt. keeps my mind occupied on what to wear and stop thinking bout other stuff.. yepx..

Been spamming pictures during bcomm cls with serene and the rest for the past 2 days =)

went to wheelock ytd aft sch to ask bout Kc's ipod but he brought the casing and nv brg it =.=.. so today went again and he is gettin a replacement with the earpiece.. lol.. shopped at cine and heerens today.. saw a nice shirt for alex but due to parental objection he cld not buy it but me and kai was like i lend u money want?? hahaha!!

alex gave me a very good question. "how u become so good frens ?" and i'm thinking i dunno.. the first half of our friendship was always u being the one callin and sms.. now roles are reversed and the only reason i can say is cos u've got someone else to be there for u..

i just wanna go to a corner alone........ its so hard to smile at a person whom u're beside with but feels so far away cos they're in their own world.

ends

It was a beautiful sunset.

Thx for talkin to me.. seeing those kids play remind me wen we were still young.. no such problems pestering our minds.. endless laughter and children talk. still, i got no answers.. but i noe its time to let go..  i'm too tired already..

i felt like walkin away.. but i doubt it wld not be worth it losing a fren like u.. u're the only fren i really got..

shopping

ok..i'm back.. saw a few things at far east i wanted to buy.. skirt at only $1o and another chiffon kimono top also $10... Argh!! i need to control my spending... but now.. i want smthg else.. a checkered v-necked top($19) and a pink chiffon stone top($17).....come on!! whose nice to sponsor me =))

shiat.. i hafta find work to keep up with my spending..... and stop blog shopping to tempt myself..

i managed to pass it to u...... x_x

wolverine

well lets see.. my voice has returned.. praise the lord =))

have been out ytd at shaw watchin wolverine.. very nice show mux go watch!!!! GAMBIT is sooo CUTE!! The SGgang has also decided to watch night at the museum2 together wen it comes out so we can all go nuts together again. But i'll book online first if that day is a freakin PH. Gv was like totally packed and cathay wasn'r screening that movie.. bookin online at 2pm, comp also hang cos over viewers =.= 

aniwae.. i have done my part of the hsework.. gonna go out laterr.. =)

shld i or shld i not pass it to you?