drink

Yesterday night,

was my first drinkin experience.. my limit sucks.. 

and i didn't noe y i cldn't stop it frm happening..

but in turn of events, it help numb all my feelins

wen someone finally replied aft 3 weeks and 6 days.. 

i shld be fine.. but y am i feelin so down,

left to dwell on all these crap while u walk away unscathed?

it probably was for the best like u said..

i cleaned the aircon, help buy groceries, 

played the guitar and piano..

went jogging despite my 4 freakin blisters

still,

my head hurts,

my legs hurts,

my insides are tearing me up.. =(

and in 2 month, i have dropped 6 kg frm all

the unwanted stress..

i want another drink.....