bbq

ytd supposed to go sch to pay french fees.. ended up.. mei saw me while driving pei to sch.. so they give me a lift to their hse x) den end up laze here laze there.. with the rain so heavy also, end up nv go sch.. sianx.. practiced guitar and took a nap b4 screams got me awoken.. den kai and me headed for the bball court.. supposedly say watch only but ended up playin.. haha.. den went got home suddenly noticed kai's watch missing so headed back.. though everybody was gone.. damn lucky the watch was still there.. whew..!! than bbq and ate curry.. mei had 2 dae cakes.. shand't elaborate why xcept that we ate the better one.. hahaha:)

for today, woke up at bout 10 plus den did somehouse work i neglected.. and i also baked a choco cake for lee yang.. den met kai at MC and tried to go gothic style.. xD.. before heading to meet the other at bugis.. ate fish n co.. everybody was trying to make ly the centre of attraction.. so kai and jovan started singing bdae song.. but most ended up like spoilt recorder:" Hap! Hap! Hap!" cos ly was staring daggers at them.. haha..

well.. gonna go watch tv.. ciao!

cheering Up

well.. i'm certainly feeling better now.. nomore makin my pillow drenched b4 i sleep.. aniwae, to cut the long story short,

FRIDAY

woken up at 8 in the morn. and was extremely grumpy due to ytd's mood.. haix.. but in the car mumy and i exchanged thoughts..thought thru a few things... den fetched kukong peter to do bawang kepiting (Crab Soup). its one fo the easier dishes but the best soup one can taste.. but somehow, kukong sensed that i was not as lively though i did try my best to act as if everything was normal.. .. felt too uptight so decided to find kai. he brought me to Sai BaBa there and i really felt calmness there.. than we walked aroung velocity which was really cool with the basketball court outside the mall x). aft that went to view his childhood pics.. sooo cutee. i cldn't recognise him :) den watched xun qing ji b4 heading to dreamland.

SATURDAY

I GOT MY MAC ALUM FINALLY!! THX DADY!

went to kai's hse early in the morning at 9am cos hafta wake him up to cut his hair.. ended up.. he too tired.. so bout 11am, he went back to slp till 1pm before we started playin the guitar.. hotel california is on the way.. and of cos watching xun qing ji again.. haha ;) went home bout 6, catched a little of ai, read a little.. den ZZZZzzzz

TODAY

had a good sleep finally..went for service.. felt the distance i have strayed away frm god. today's band "delusion" was good.. and it served a purpose for me to see the whole of max pavilion being packed fully. International delegats were there.. and pastor ceaser did a marvelous job with the sermon, guiding me back to where i wanted :) than headed to MS.. was earlier than kai.. haha.. over sleeper.. cld see it was real busy.. den finally ate a decent meal since the past 4 days. got my appetite back too;) caught ai sha with da zui ba at bugis.. was quite packed.. but went to view shirts instead.. haha..

went over for dinner.. and we started to play with eyeliners x) pei was pink and blue while kai was blue ....mine = matural.. haha>>

tmr's mei's bdae... fun fun!!! i tink i'm gonna go hve an early night =) no more being locked down.. faith restored.. for God's Blood Never Fails ;)

i was scared.. but i shld jux leave it as it is. why make myself unhappy.. gotto smile more.. cos i treaure uu..

LIAR

noe wad..

I hate LIARs..

in a real bad mood so nthg to say..

trying to smile

today went with yang yang and heng heng to sp for the enrollment thingy..ended up being like a mother... haha x) viewed the computers and compared it to np.. np much better.. den cabbed down to ly hse n met his huge dog which can play dead.. very cute.. den met up with cy, jovan and kc for dinner but first got my bagpack at bugis.. and ate at phin's steak for $25.. i'm gonna be so broke..>.<>

i'm tryin my hard to smile to laugh.. but its hard cos i feel u drifting further away frm me and it jux scares me that one day u'll be gone.. and i'm gonna be left alone again.. how many times have i told myself nv to be dependent on anyone cos it always ends up with the same result. i'm so stupid.

a step into the past utube

i finally got my well-deserved rest..... cos i just WOKE UP.. haha.. can't rmb the last time i woke up so late..hmmm... well i'm getting very restless at home.. i need find a job soon or i shld jux probably relax.. haha

didn't do much the other days.. on sat wen out with uncle david and kai.. my nose was a tap and my voice so sexual.. haha den sunday got pulled out of bed at 8am to go marketing and started cooking bua keluak till 3pm.. hand damn tired.. delieverd the food to kukong peter.. and he said it was good for a beginner.. though it lacked a little sugar and salt plus the meat was not evenly mixed.. hee hee.. dun wry, i'll improve >.<>

have been practicing on my guitar till it went out of tune but i didn't noe.. haha.. managed the plucking for the first 2 bars of hotel california!! i'm so smart x)

Have also been watching very good hong kong serial acted by louis khoo, xuan xuan and a s'porean actress.. go catch it on youtube -- Xun Qing Ji (A Step Into the Past)....

so i tink dats all.. gotto go watch my dramamamamass...
other than the fact i'm trying to be happy.

teardrops on my guitar

my exact feelings....

Teardrops On My Guitar_ Taylor Swift

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll be she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough for me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

chalet guitar

whee.. chalet is over.. the past 3 days have been a blast and full of fun..

02/3/09
went out with shiling at 11am.. went to vivo and bought my beret frm f21 finally.. den went to daiso and ya kun kaya toast to eat.. gal talked and catched up alot.. i feel i really neglected my frens frm back in ahs.. i haven't seen them like in ages.. thx ling for accompanying me shopping and hearing me talk non stop.. haha.. den slacked at the chalet.. we seriously went to early.. so go IMM walk.. eat mos and buy discs.. den went back chalet since the guys saud they were arriving..

den i got my surprise.. a guitar case filled with kinder surprise chocolate.. of cos they were jux playin.. jovan was holding my new guitar behind.. i was damn touched... it is the best surprise that i ever had.. and the best present i cld get on my 18th belated bdae. thx to you all mann.. which is kc, ben, yi heng, chunyong, jovan, andy, gabriel, lee yang, wee hoe, melissa, shiling. reli thx alot.. x) den played bball and ate at HANs for dinner..

03/03/09
actually woke up bout 10am.. but was super freezing.. so jux lie down there though the ppl sleepin upstairs was gg crazy with their slangs.. they left us with one hr of quiet cos go eat breakfats den they were back.. by than was already 3pm.. den the guys go play bball again plus swimming.. the gals went IMM to buy us macs.. rest was also doing their own things.. so i ended up gg to bed.. jux felt i needed a quiet time.. buddy somehow called by telepathy again.. thx for hearing me whine again.. den kai came up to find me.. i didn't noe wad came over me at that time. i jux felt so alone and confused.. i'm sry for dampening the mood.. i didn't wanna say anything cos its best to jux forget bout everything.. i noe i'm in no position to ask so much.. but u've got my wrd that i'll stop.. i treasure this friendship as much as u do and i dun want to see it slowly deteriorating..

watch step up 2 and drank.. den decided to slp cos like know tmr hafta wake up early to check out.. so went up to slp on the bed.. so comfy.. but dis time no blanket.. fishmonger jovan took it all for himself on the sofa.. haha.. its ok jojo.. ytd night u freezed so tonight your turn to be warm..

04/03/09
checked out exactly 12 aft hunting for towels x).. though was delayed cos of some admin problem, went to simpang to eat prawn noodle.. den took taxi home. bathed and slept.

05/03/09
so today...aft more than 12 hours of slp.. later gg watch bball match finals back at ahs.. miss my sec sch mann.. and my holiday aim.. to learn the guitar and get my driving license.. :)

forget

i finally understand how sucky it can get... didn't have any mood to do anything so help mum with cookin in the morning.. den went back to slp at bout 4 pm till now.. haha.. its like its so freakin meaningless.. its raining outside so can't go jogging also.. oh yeah! i plan to lose at least 3kg durin this hols mann.. i'm currently in the correct track..x)

tmr probably gg for church... den i'll be off for chalet on mon.. the guys planning a surprise for me.. lol.. dunno wad they up to.. so meeting shiling first,, have decide to go vivo to buy my beret... i'm so in love with dat... mux go shopping with zx again.. hee hee..

just forget forget forget forget forget!

used...

Yesterday was fun..after all the morning calls to mostly everyone...and everybody met an hr later than the time set.. finally went out with ben and gang who crapped like they never met for 10 years.... buy shoes sponsored by daddy.. den eat sushi till full.. played bball at the arcade.. with jovan and kai hitting 336 plus ben and chunyong hitting 335.. den act shooting movie..freak ass funny..and watched marley and me.. that show made me freakin cry like crap.. haha.. lucky ben also accompany me in wasting tissue x) it seriously depends on the company mann.. though we did like nthg, the outing was filled with laughter and everybody was themselves.. it made everything A OK!

slept at 6am ytd... crap every shit thing dat i'm in a damn stupid foul mood.. fuck!
feeling so stupid like everytime.. fairytales are so fake. but this is reality so gotto buck up and stop becoming so naive.

OVER!!! first year poly

FINALLY ALL PAPERS ARE OVER!!!!! WHOO HOO!!! I have finished my 1st year of poly =)

yes adede u're finally officially 18 =).. u've been quite a good gal, putting more effort than any exams since entering poly!! x) well, i am damn happy now.. all papers down.. and even managed to celebrate my birthday on sunday.. popiah was a success..=)) later will post more pictures.. finally have time to update.. well.. here goes..

sunday, woke up at 7am to do marketing and preparation of popiah till 4pm plus den waited for the rest of my family to come.. its been long since i jux spent my birthday only with family.. it let me feel a warm feeling.. especially the "get choc from the cake rush" wen cutting of the cake. it made me feel that we cousins are also very close, jokin here and there but always dere wen u need advice.. though mux thank jiayin for instigating yr bro to spread cream over my face.. hahaha =)) it was a great 18th birthday=)

monday, lucky studied for macro.. woke up in the morn to deliver popiah to kai before heading out for econs test.. wheeeeeee=)) can la.. average paper..

tues, due to procrastinating, i only started on my 9 chapter of BMGT at 7pm mon.. freakin all memorising.. lucky kai force me to study.. alot stuff came out.. managed to do sleepin studying trick.. hee >.<>

Wed, POA was a little screwed but my bank reconciliation was tallied correctly.. my first time smthg balanced out... haha.. so frm my F shld improve to at least a C. rahh!! hope my first term can pull up.. aft test, cab down with nick, ZX, marc tan and serene go vivo.. treated myself to Carl's junior.. yum yum!! love the fries... and went shopping.. oooh.. i love F21 crochet beret.. tmr go buy!! counted as bro's bdae gift to me.. yayyy!!! den was supposed to meet uncle alex to buy my bag at cine but the shop closed down.. sianx.. so went home..

feel so free and slack.. haha.. tmr gg out with jojo, monkey, goat and the rest of the gang.. miss their crap especially this 2 weeks of exam..

gonna catch up my beauty sleep =))
nice song.. the words i needed to hear..
"Lucky - Jason Mraz"

i dunno if u feel the same as me.. i reali want to tell u those wrds.. but i'm just afraid it'll backfire..its tough holding back.. wen wld be the right time? proabably never..

popiah

omg... i hve currently not slept for the past 36.5 hours and still counting....

wasn't slpin cos was watchin pink panther 2. till 6am...heex.. x) den had to go marketing to get popiah ingredients at 6.30.. ended up eating breakfast spree --> peanut pancake, soyabean, kueh chap.. whews..

when finally got back to the house.. kena do cutting and slicing.. had to do the tau kee and bamboo shoots with jia ying.. freakin tired and painful.. got 3 blisters liao.. jux sit there for 3hours+ with the knife.. the preparation was the tedious one.. den the frying.. and mixing of all the ingredients.. so many.. ragh!! but aniwae.. here are some pics to see how busy we were in the kitchen.. with me, alvan, jiayin, mum, aunty alina and kukong peter =)

well.. hopefully the food turn out good tmr=))
hmm.. am i gonna slp tonight?? YES!! DUH!!!

stressedddd

BLAW down.. 3 more to go...

haha.. so i feel so much more relaxed now.. thx buddy for being there at the time i needed u the most.. felt so stressed plus with all the other considerations... wish all this will pass soon.. really want my exams to be over so i can jux heck care and play....

still counting dowin of my 14 days.. where 5 days i have gone out to sit for 2 exams, go out study twice, and out to eat for dinner during vdae... wonderful shit........

alright... i shld be freakin slpin....

blaw eve

haix... its a fact but so wierd.. at night can't slp... morning can't wake up..

tmr is finally blaw exam.. but i'm still staring at my txtbook only... wth...its like i'm proof-reading.. nthg is getting locked down in my brain... and worst still.. can't even take a nap at all.. lost all mood or motivation on the last day... ragh!! i haven even memorised my cases for proving in LAC..

everybody is freakin mugging.......... can i just knock my head on the cupboard again to get some lethargic-ness outta me?? well.. gonna go stare somemore.. hope it can even be at least like 5% useful...

vdae's nxt day

haha.. i can't believe it.. its the 15 of feb but the last time i came here to post it was 7 jan.. dats like more than a month.....

well... my life's been good and i'm settling down to a routine to study for my upcoming exams.. can't believe that i'm gg to 2 nd year of poly already. and congrats to my cousin for gettin in to this same sch and same course as me =)

ytd was valetines day.. and i spent the morning helpin my mom out till afternoon.. den i cooked clam chowder pasta with sausage ... heex!! so far no one is complaining of a stomach upset.. yayy!! than in the evening, went to pizza hut for a very full and delicious dinner with mumsy and aylwin.. before learning to choose fresh prawns to do my nonya popiah this sunday.. can't wait to be 18 =)

mux thx Kukong peter for still coming over to teach me to cook for my birthday.. yupx.. i'm proud to say i have a true blue perenakan grand uncle who is a damn good cook and patient enuf to teach me... everybody got into the craze after 'the little nonya' show.. but it made me appreciate my culture also and to finally stop procrastinating in learning how to cook the dishes from scratch..

well... surprisingly, i feel i have learn finish my macro.. hopefully.. my other subjects will finish studying them soon also.. oh shit my poa :-/... 25 feb hurry up come =))))))))

HELLO 2009

HAPPY 2009!

Can't believe it... its been 2 months since i have posted.. i must be really crazy... during the months wen i want to blog, i can blog faithfully everyday.. but wen i'm too lazy.. i disappear for at least a month.. lol...well.. at least i'm alive and well.. the holidays flew past real fast too..but i guess i thouroughly enjoyed myself.. i cld finally stay out quite late..

1) Gg to ben's hse to play and how it ended.. heh heh..

2) Christmas countdown
ended up counting down in cinema watching 'yes man' x)

3) X'mas gathering
singing for 6 hours straight with 19 others.. having our freakin funny gift exchange where andy and julian topped the list of giving the wackiest gift...shandn't disclose here.. hee hee!

4) New year eve movie outing.. etc...

Really played hard.. so this term mux work hard.. >.<.. looks like many got good results.. hopefully this week, my results will be on par with the rest.

madagascar 2

I like to move it move it, i like to~ MOVE IT!!!

aft sch.. met up at the usual place yet again.. managed to meet bryan.. and to find out bout.. "J".. hee hee.. went to tiong bahru again..madagascar lost in africa is freakin nice.. sentimental yet extremely humourous at the same time.. went to watch with the usual peeps ytd at tiong bahru again.. hahz.. n mux go in the aftnoon again.. fr the same price we wld spend only on tickets on a sunday.. we got 3 nachos and 2 sweet corn.. yummy!!!

den go for dance.. mr xu nv come again =.=!! so rehearsed.. la cosaire+ opening for a hr plus.. before learning nicoles dance.. prac till 10.40.. damn tired... lucky tmr no need go anymore.. sunday gg victoria theatre prac.. whew.. gona go watch tv.. ciao!!

short hair

Dance prac is gettin more and more tedious.. but i noe its all gonna be worth it since its for the performance.. frm young, the only thing i reali enjoy is when i'm dancing, findin the rhythm and jux let the natural movement flow.. during those hours.. its like i'm someone else.. i jux forget everything n jux dance.. reali lovin every beat of flamenco.. n i lurve the costume.. heex x)

went to hougang to cut hair with kai again..jux sloped everything.. hahz.. sch boy style.. x) n spent the rest of the aftnooon slackin offf.. n thx ivan.. u're rite bout appreciating the company n not be bothered by other things. Also, Finally meetin up with the old gang tmr to celebrate jr b'dae.. long time nv see them liao.. its such a great time to meet and catch up... can't seem to make up our minds on where to go.. LOL..

tonight seems so quiet.. n well.. i started to soak up the silence n tink bout things i shld nv harbour hopes about since i believe i noe the ans already..... i dunno wads up with me these few days.. i reali wanna be the same prsn who jux smiles n laugh off everything.. in sch, someone mentioned i seemed diffferent, with my expression so fixed up.. i'm tryin to find back myself too.. everything seemed so superficial.. i feel so in my own world now.. i tend to tense up with you these days.. i dun even noe y.. i'm probably jux afraid to lose a fren like you who i have gotten so used to in my life..i'm jux a worry sensitive freak i guess... everything i do.. i hesitate.. i dun hve the confidence.... jux tired out mann...

house bunny

omg.. can't believe it.. its like one wk of sch has passed.. n i'm counting down to my next holidays.. x)

aniwae.. went to tiong bahru aft sch with kai. ben, yi heng, gabriel n lee yang who crashed lecture.. haha! n we hve found the best destination to watch movie frm now on.. heh heh..the hall was like super empty la.. we nearly had it all to ourselves except entered in 2 couples.. lol.. watched house bunny which was ridiculously funny!! :)

den we went to bk for dinner n all jus talked crap till had to go home.. on the train also damn funny.. i managed to scare gabriel in thinking bedok was actually tampines n he nearly got off the train..hahahahah... can't wait to go out again.. whee!!

dance is gettin more serious each week.. reali lookin forward especially to flamenco plus all the rest too!! hopefully i'll be fine tmr.. =))

ecp bbq

so today has finally started sch.. love mon n fri mann.. can go home early at 1pm.. =)) and i found out BLAW is freakin fun to study.. hmmm..

Well, ytd was a great way to end the hols too.. enjoyed myself loads with kai, ben and yiheng who went to watch movie = burn aft reading.. brad pitt was such a hot gay!! haha.. den we went to east coast park for our bbq =)) butt is currently aching due to cyling too much.. n i found out i really lost touch in blading.. >.<

gonna go slp.. tmr 2nd day of sch=)) heh heh.......

no more soilbuild

I HAVE OFFICIALLY STOPPED WORK!!! YIPEE!!!!

ok.. so its like finally we manage to get out earlier than the contract.. no more facin excel spreadsheets, no more tying n filing, photocopying.. etc.. =)) 3 cheers mann.. other than knowing our pay has been cut due to CPF i guess everything was ok...

so i can finally start relaxing... tmr can go find my buddy n go shopping n eat.. yayys!! though i'm gg thru another stupid phase of no voice, nose leakin like crazy, etc and the comment that says i tink u reaali sound like dying, the joy of no more job is giving me the motivation to get well... =))